What I Unlearned

In shadows cast by lessons learned

From roots in soil where pain was churned

Behaviors, traits, from mother’s hand

Unhealthy paths, a troubled land

For years I walked this twisted way

In darkness, where the heart would fray

But strength within began to rise

A spark of hope, a new sunrise

Six years of toil, with two most bright

Unlearning wrongs, embracing light

Each step a battle, fierce and true

To find the self that’s wholly you

The past, a teacher harsh and cold

Yet in its grip, I broke the mold

With courage, grace, I’ve come so far

A shining soul, a guiding star

Now, as I stand on firmer ground

With wisdom deep and peace profound

Remember this, my heart’s own song

In healing, I have found where I belong

I unlearned how to lie, to hate myself, to hate others, to view the world in a negative way, to put other's before myself, to value myself enough to not be treated poorly and abused, to not allow men to take what they want from me, to not allow someone to control my every move, to manipulate others and more. I'm still learning everyday what life is supposed to be like, how to grow up, how to live, pay bills and contribute to society, my likes and dislikes and most importantly, I've been free to explore my identity other than what my mother wanted it to be. I've had to unlearn over 30 years of toxic dysfunction and misery. It's extremely liberating, frustrating, happy and sad all at the same time. The cycle of grief feels like a bipolar tornado half the time, but I'm smiling in ways I've never smiled before, so I know I'm on the right track.

#ProtectMyself

#NeverSilenced

#SpeakUP

#Unlearning

#TLC