The Ride Along Part 6
- Hannah L
- Oct 18, 2024
- 3 min read
TRIGGER WARNING: Mention of statutory rape
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A long time ago
When I was so young
I trusted a man
Who said he was fun
He took me for a ride
To a job, he said
But as we arrived
I felt filled with dread
He led me to a room
And locked the door
I didn’t know what to do
I felt so unsure
He started touching me
In places I didn’t want
But I didn’t say no
I just froze in front
He was a grown man
And I was just a child
But he didn’t care
He acted so wild
I wonder why
Men see me as meat
I was broken and lost
Just looking for a treat
But that day
I’ll never forget
I still feel the pain
And the regret
Why did he see me
As just a prize to win
I was just a girl
So young and thin
I bet he doesn’t remember
The way I do
But I can’t forget
What he put me through
I’m more than just
A body for someone’s pleasure
I’m a person with feelings
And I deserve so much better
So to all the men
Who think it’s okay
To take advantage of girls
And have their way
I hope you realize
The pain you cause
And learn to see us
As more than just flaws
I may never forget
But I’ll still rise above
I’m stronger than before
And I’ll find love
I won’t let the past
Define who I am
I’ll be the one
To break the dam
And speak out
For all the girls
Who have been hurt
In this messed-up world
We deserve respect
And to be seen
As more than just objects
From a fantasy dream
So to all the men
Who have caused pain
Just know that we’ll rise
And we’ll break the chain
My mother works at a telecommunications company. I don't remember if it was summer, if I was out of school for being in trouble, if it was, "Take your daughter to work day," or if it was a scheduled break. I do remember the man she had me do a ride along with that day, and I remember him very well. I don't remember the specifics of the job or what he did, but I do remember the sexual jokes and insinuations in the truck on the way to each job. I was 15 years old. I'm not sure exactly how old this man was, but he was at least in his 20's.
When we were at the last job, he grabbed my hand and pulled me close to him. He started kissing me. From what I've learned from men, you just start kissing back. It's best to give the men what they want to avoid any harm. Before I knew it, he was taking off my shirt. He got my bra off rather quickly. He started kissing my boobs while pulling my pants off at the same time. He forced me to go down on him, pushing my head forcefully the way he wanted. When I gagged, he pushed harder. He told me he was going to teach me how to, "Properly suck a dick." He pulled my head away and quickly took off my pants but left my underwear on. He pulled his penis out of his pants, but didn't take his pants or shirt off. He put me on the ground, slid my underwear to the side, and then he penetrated me. The whole thing took less than a few minutes. He didn't threaten me in any way or anything, but did tell me that I "Probably shouldn't tell my mom about this, because he doesn't want me to get in trouble."
I didn't tell my mother that he penetrated me, but I did tell her that I was uncomfortable around him. I don't know if she ever said anything to anyone.
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