Rearranged

I will not fall down at your feet

And beg for your approval

I am releasing myself from the grip

Of your unattainable standards

I am no longer bound by the chains

Of your demands

I am breaking free from the doubt

And uncertainty you have instilled in me

No longer will I second-guess

Myself and my worth

I am letting go of the skepticism

And embracing my own truth

I am no longer skeptical of you

And your intentions

I see them for what they are

And I am no longer afraid

I am taking control of my own destiny

And walking away from your unchanging ways

I am rearranging my thoughts and mind

Letting go of the expectations

That have held me back for so long

I am embracing my own path

And trusting in my own instincts

I may never satisfy

Your overwhelming expectations

But that does not define my worth

I am standing tall and walking away

From the pressure to conform to your standards

I will not fall down at your feet

And beg for your approval

I am strong, I am capable

And I will not be held back any longer

I am letting go

And forging my own path

While forgiveness, without it being wanted, is something I am continuously working on when it comes to my mother, I do need to let go of the expectations, no, the unattainable expectations she's had for me. I need to know that nothing I do will ever be good enough for her, because my life is not what she wants it to be. There are still times, like when I just passed two more classes this week with an A that I cried. I cried because I want her approval. Writing this down, posting this, it's helpful in working on the forgiveness aspect, as well as the need for her approval.

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