In this quiet dust of a solitary hour
I listen to speeches that empower
Motivational words, like a gentle caress
Infuse me with courage, banish distress
Each syllable spoken, a beacon of light
Guiding me through the darkest night
Validation found in their resonant tone
Affirming my worth, making it known
Acceptance blooms within my soul
As their wisdom helps me feel whole
Embracing flaws, mistakes of the past
Knowing growth comes, forever steadfast
They push me to reach beyond my sphere
To break through limits, shed every fear
To strive for greatness, to rise above
To be the best version of me, with love
Motivational speeches, a powerful force
Fueling my spirit, setting a new course
With every word, they ignite the flame
Inspiring me to never be the same
One of the most efficient ways I’ve found to parent myself is YouTube motivational videos. Motiversity, specifically. Growing up, I didn’t hear words like, “Good job, you got this, I’m so proud of you, you did great, you got this, go for your dreams, don’t let other people bring you down,” etc. I heard the exact opposite. I heard all the words that let me know I wasn’t capable of anything. That I wasn’t capable of the things I’ve accomplished over the past 6 years. To the point that I cry, sometimes hysterically when I do. Because for three decades I was told I would never amount to anything, and I’m amounting to things, to big things, to important life changing things.
These videos allow me to feel confident. I hear other stories from motivational speakers that have been in similar positions, worse positions and other things, which have made something of themselves despite their environment and situations. It gives me hope, and it fuels my desire to keep going. Watching these videos is how I imagine a healthy parent with healthy guidance, love, and acceptance would treat their children, minus the occasional yelling of course. But it’s the occasional yelling I resonate with, because that was my environment. While being screamed at constantly was being called names and belittled, the screaming with the motivational push is what I can best relate to.
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