Daily affirmations don't seem to help
The world keeps showing me I don't matter
How am I supposed to find my worth
When everyone is constantly showing me I have none
It's true, people will do anything for the ones they love
But when I ask for help, it's as if I'm invisible
I rarely ask for much, just a little bit of support
Yet it feels like I'm always met with silence
I've come to realize that I will never have a healthy relationship
Of any sort, romantic or friendly
All I will ever have is myself
And that's okay, because I am enough
I may not be the top priority in anyone's life
But I am my own priority
I will support and love myself
And find worth in who I am
I may not have the love of others
But I have self-love, and that's enough
I will build a life that is solely mine
And find happiness in being my own person
Why do people take from others? I’m not talking about money or things, but why do we take someone’s kindness and empathy and use it for our selfish nature? That’s what I’m used to. Although, that’s not what I was told growing up; I was constantly told how selfish I was about thinking of myself first, in any situation. (Hmmm. Could this be where my people-pleasing came from?) I have a lot of love to give. I am an intense person, but I love just as intensely as I do with feelings of sadness and happiness. I’m a hopeless romantic; I believe in large gestures, (it’s not the money, it’s the thought and ideas), I believe in dropping everything when someone is in need, and I give my all in any relationship, whether romantic or otherwise. I have yet to find that person, other than my ex that I screwed up, and even that was just a short time in my life. This has forced me to do those things for myself. To give myself the love I give others, to focus on my well-being and happiness, and hope that someday, there is someone for me that will do the same. I am all I need. I just want someone in my life. Ironically, I have become selfish and greedy by setting boundaries and focusing on myself.
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