In a tale spun six years prior, we stood on the verge of “I do”
A path not taken, a life unfurling anew
In the shadow of a bond unwed
Lies the echo of a fear, a story unsaid
Could’ve been tethered to disdain
A heart embattled, a soul in chains
Perhaps in another universe, another life
I’d dance on the edge of a knife
But time has woven its healing grace
His memory, a ghost, a forgotten face
Yet, in the quiet, in the dark
His shadow lingers, a silent mark
From his storm, I took my leave
In my strength, I chose to believe
Yet remnants of that tempest’s roar
Tint my steps, my core
I read lightly, lest I wake fears
Faint whispers of those past years
A journey of healing, a path I pave
From the brink of a grave, I chose to save
No longer his, but wholly mine
In my heart, a resilient shine
A survivor’s anthem, a battle won
Underneath the same bright sun
The echoes of what could’ve been
Fade into what I have seen
A life reclaimed, a destiny reshaped
From the shadows, I have escaped
So here I stand, in the light of day
From the chains of fear, I’ve broken away
A testament to strength, a new dawn’s glow
From the ashes of the past, I grow
The night after my ex abused me badly, one of the times.... he asked me to marry him. Our date was set, and it was June 2nd, 2018. Save the date cards went out, my dress was bought and the wedding was fully paid for. Engagement photos were taken and everything. The story of him and I is somewhat on here, and will come out further. Just know that after I decided to remove myself from this world, I was homeless with nowhere to go, and I was the one that paid for the entire wedding. He somehow convinced the venue to give him the money. I didn't fight it, because stupidly I still wanted him back, and would've done anything for him during that time.
I've done the healing from him. It was him and the need to be safe that gave me the push back to my home state. It was this specific situation that allowed me to start the healing process. I heard this song on the radio the other day for the first time, and I smiled, because I realized I hadn't thought about him for quite some time, and that, was the BEST feeling I've had in 6 years.
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