Happy Birthday, Mother

On this day of celebration, with joy and cheer

Let’s weave a tale, a story so dear

A poem for you, on your special day

To chase the shadows of blues away

I see you share your journey, your past and mine

In hopes that healing will intertwine

Know this, dear soul, my love is true

May your day be bright, with skies so blue

Memories of laughter, of moments so sweet

They dance in our hearts, in rhythm and beat

May more of these gems grace our tomorrows

Chasing away all our hidden sorrows

Life’s fleeting moments, they come, and they go

Let’s embrace the now, let our spirits glow

Treat yourself kindly, with love and care

For within you, a universe so rare

Buy something nice, a gift from the heart

A token of self-love, a brand-new start

You deserve to heal, to mend and grow

In your light, may newfound strength show

So, raise a glass, to you, to life

To all its wonders, its joy and strife

On this day, your birthday, let’s make a vow

To cherish ourselves, then and now

Today is my mother's 59th birthday. I'm still working hard to forgive people that don't want it, or think they need it. I'm still working on becoming more like Jesus; understanding that life is more complicated than "Someone hurt me," and realizing that people are struggling with their own demons. I understand my mother's behavior. I understand that generations before her have created her behaviors, thoughts, and actions towards me and others. While it tremendously affected my life, I want to be the person that forgives. I want to show everyone the unconditional love that I felt I did not receive. I want to give my mother a chance at happiness, healing, and peace. I want to love her the way I deserved and the way she deserved. "Kill them with kindness," is a phrase I now understand. So, this poem was sent to her through the mail. Whether or not she reads them at this point, it doesn't matter. I'm trying, and I'll never stop trying. Just like with my son, whose items remain in bins for the day we hopefully reconnect. If I want someone to never give up on me, then I must show people what it's like to never give up on them. This is a work in progress, and there are currently many people in my life that I want to do this with. But I feel like it starts here; with writing about it. By forgiving people when I'm not ready, by telling them I forgive them, by showing them love.

#CPTSD #Relationships #MotherDaughter

#Forgiveness #Kindness

According to my mother, she used to sing this song to me when I was a little girl.