Foul Mouth

In a room filled with judgment and blame

She pointed out her best friend’s shame

Yet her own words, sharp and spewed

Revealed the mirror where hypocrisy brewed

Disgust with self in disguise

Projecting faults with judgmental eyes

A cycle of critique and disdain

Revealing where true growth must sustain

For our flaws reflected in others we see

Are often the ones where we fail to be free

Instead of pointing fingers outward in flight

Turn inwards, embrace, and make it right

May self-awareness and compassion prevail

As we navigate the flaws in our own detail

Let honesty and kindness bloom and disperse

Embracing imperfections, lifting the curse

Just another example of hypocrisy and toxicness. I'm not sure my mother's best friend knows how much she talks about her, but I'm sure her friend also talks about my mother. Gossip is what binds them together, keeps them coming back to each other. My mother however, is able to paint the picture to our family of how potty mouthed her friend is, and how much of a drunk she is. Now, I'm not sure why my family never questions why she's friends with her if that's the case, and if she's so disgusted by it. But the reason she's disgusted by it, is that she's disgusted with her own mouth. Honestly, as I write this, I'm disgusted myself, and I'm close to processing a lot of it. I will continue to write what's on my list, for the sake of getting it all out there, but I'm not triggered by it anymore. In fact, my mother will be in town in about a week, and I couldn't care less. Just like last time. I'm disgusted because I adapted the same behaviors, and I'm disgusted with how many people I've hurt with this same behavior.

#SelfReflection