Faith in Myself

In a world of promises broken and frayed

I find myself feeling lost, dismayed

For every word spoken, a hope alive

Yet actions fall short, trust takes a dive

Tired of carrying burdens not my own

Trust betrayed, left to face it alone

Black and white, the world becomes

As I seek solace in my heart's drums

For those I've leaned on, I've paid the cost

Giving my all, yet constantly lost

From now on, my faith I'll keep

And focus on myself, in promises deep

I fell into a deep people-pleasing state for a few years. People know that I’m dependable. They know they can count on me, and don’t stop to think about what it’s doing to me, nor are they present when I need something. I’ve learned not to depend on others, but I’ve also learned to set firm, healthy boundaries in place to protect my physical and mental well-being, and would you guess that my life is getting even better, and opportunities are literally knocking on my door? I still have much empathy, and I still help whenever I am able, but I no longer put aside my responsibilities, needs, wants, and desires. I focus on myself, first. I’ve learned that the word “no” is not only powerful but exhilarating. I also stopped explaining why I say no. I got tired of bawling alone every night, begging for companionship and care, while trying to save the world. This is a harsh lesson life taught me, to finally put myself first. Something my mother always told me I was being selfish for doing. This is exactly how I learned that I need to depend only on myself, for anything and everything, including my emotions.

#NotSelfish

#SelfLove

#SelfCare