Ex-Dreaming
- Hannah L
- 12 hours ago
- 2 min read
Last night I dreamt of my ex
In the darkness of my slumber
I saw us holding hands
And felt the warmth of his embrace
We kissed under the starry sky
Lost in each other’s embrace
But then I woke alone
With tears streaming down my face
It felt so real, so vivid
As if he was still here with me
But I know it’s just a dream
A bittersweet memory
Though he’s no longer mine
His presence still lingers
In the corners of my mind
And the depths of my heart
I long for his touch
But I know it’s just a dream
That will never be real
I’ll cherish the memory
And let it fade with time
For the love we once shared
Will always be a part of me
Being that it's actually 08/11/2024 when I am posting this, I have well processed my 20 year, we'll say, addiction to an ex of mine. I truly thought I was going to end up with him someday, but now I know, and have fully processed what was actually going on in my head all those years. I'll skip that, as I've posted about it several times.
We don't fully understand our dreams, other than we are processing information. When I went to bed one night, I was feeling quite lonely. Not wanting or missing my ex, but lonely. I'm independent and really don't need, nor do I want a man in my life at the moment, but living alone does create some loneliness. Then dreamt about my ex. During my dreams, the same feelings were present as when I was with him. Living with CPTSD, things like this happen to me often. I could feel, in my dreams, the love I had for him. I could feel him holding my hand, kissing my neck, and I could feel his love for me at that time as well. The difference is that when I woke up, I laughed, because I knew that my brain was trying to trick me. Or call it the devil, or bad energy, or whatever, trying to pull me back in. I simply smiled, and remembered that him and I had each other during times that we needed each other, for whatever lessons we were supposed to learn, to prepare us for our future soul mate. Then I went on about my day. That, my friends, is what you call healing.
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