In the quiet of my solitude, I stand
With a heart that’s both full and expanding
“I don’t need a man or friend,” I proclaim
Yet the echo returns, whispering my name
It’s not about needing, but rather desire
For a connection that sets the soul on fire
Someone on my level, a companion so true
With whom I can share every hue
I long for a presence, effortlessly profound
Where silence speaks volumes without a sound
Someone to inquire, with genuine care
“How are you today?” hanging in the air
For moments when sadness quietly creeps
And the weight of the world makes my heart weep
A bastion of support, a comforting light
Dispelling the shadows of the night
I seek not a savior, but an equal standing
Someone with whom I can be demanding
Of love, of respect, of all that’s sublime
Together, transcending the constraints of time
This desire, not born of emptiness or fear
But from a place of love, crystal clear
I don’t need, yet I wish, for this gift so divine
A friend, a partner, with whom to entwine
So, I’ll wait, in this space of self-embrace
For the one who’ll meet me, face to face
Where I can fully be, without pretense or guide
In a bond where true love never dies
Seriously. The best thing that came, or is still coming, (written 04/02/2024) from this meet up and reconnection with my ex, is that I know I’m ready, but I also know that I don’t need anyone. But I’m also missing the companionship. I’m missing the fun, the cuddling, heck, even the sex. I mean, I’ve never enjoyed sex, but that was my trauma. I may have had a rendezvous once or twice over the last few weeks, and I’m telling you, healing… It heals you in all areas, and I’m ready to let the naughty girl out now that has fun, instead of just doing her job… I just want someone that cares how my day went. I want someone to feel comfortable, completely with. I’m ready. My life will continue without, and I will continue to grow, but I am ready. Still just not sure if it’s in God’s plan for me, but I’m open to it, and want it.
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